At some point, we all have to deal with death.  Grief is a natural part of life yet nobody teaches us about it  Hidden truth which is never explored or talked about.  Dealing with grief three times already at different points during my life.  Hardest one my late mother who passed away in front of me.   That moment gave me nightmares and crippled me for the longest period of time.  Destroyed the world and broke my heart.  4 years later it still stings, changed me as a person. Took me ages to admit that still hurt and impact it had.  Avoided sharing my feelings avoided the world around me.   My biggest regret was not valuing what little time was left  Avoided doing that in hope it would save me.   If anything made matters worse and caused far more damage.  Bad moments became the main thing I remembered. Months later the more positive memories displaced them.   Difficult period ruined me,  found solace laughing at stupid actions during that day. Now just willing to admit just how much grief I was suffering.  Wish to move on now took years to come to this point. That moment no longer hurts just some of the loss.  Which is a start I guess?